This might sound weird to some people, but I like going through things--all kinds of things.
Every day I say thank you for this life and EVERYTHING; every, little, thing, feeling, neurosis, worry, joy, happy memory, exciting upcoming event, strand of love extending over oceans, unresolved regret, etc., etc., infinity.
It's all invited, it's all at the table.
And I cherish all of it for a few minutes a day, because it's my process, all of it.
Yes, I like going through things--not around them, not avoiding them, not locking them away.
And I like when my friends, life coach, healers and family call me out to help me do this ... to help me see what's what, what is a load of crap worth no attention whatsoever and what is worth concentrating on.
This process is like turning the light on in the attic of life.
Taking time; sifting, sifting, really looking at stuff.
Deciding what is useless and throwing it away.
Keeping what is useful and integrating it into my person.
Otherwise, all that crap we don't look at, sort through, really attend to, sits in unlabelled boxes, lives up there, mixed, acting out, through us, unconsciously.
I want to know all the things in all the boxes, where they are.
I want to clean them.
Find the gold that the experiences left me, throw away the load of crap ego-bate it was buried in.
If I really want to help others in the future, I have to look through this stuff closely, consciously decide I don't need the ego-drama ride, consciously throw it away.
With every box unpacked, I come out in a more meaningful place, with more people to relate to, more deeply.
People I can look at and say "hey, I see you there, I know where you are."
This way, I can meet more people, feel more life, experience more connection, less judgement, more clean, motive-free Love, less fear, anywhere, anytime, with anyone.
This way, I am truly free.