This morning I felt stuck. Sometimes it’s like this. I milled around. I knew that I needed to take some kind of action. So I decided, as I often do when I am at this kind of dead-end energy state, to sit still. First I did my contemplations, in which I asked for help developing grace, tapping a higher energy state and developing my potential in specific ways. During the sit that followed, I received an idea. This is the idea:
It’s very simple. Yet when It came, it hit me like an atomic love bomb causing a mushroom cloud of mental activity that I had to detach from in order to complete my timed meditation practice!
Basically, I was instructed to stop talking about people, almost at all, for a couple weeks. It occurred to me that I am to develop a detox for the mind, beginning with back biting.
I’m not an extreme back biter. But saying that I find excuses the level I have been at, and I don't want to excuse it anymore. Indeed, after a few chats with people yesterday, I see that I’ve let myself slide into a domain that is borderline … a place where I have this icky feeling afterward because I wonder if what was said really helped anyone, including me and my conversation partners. Sure, we shed light on our journeys and how others relate to us (or don’t). Sure we validated a lot of feelings and confusions. Sure. But that icky feeling … I ask myself, what if I tried for two weeks to not say anything about anyone to anyone else except for purely logistical or highly-objective informative comments?
Like Any Other Detox
In Ayurveda, a brilliant point is woven through teachings and that is this: The mind is also digesting and assimilating experience and information. So it’s important to put good things into it, use moderation so you don’t get overloaded and way too far ahead of yourself, AND watch what you are cooking up for consumption—for you AND your guests!
Undigested, indigestible, caustic, over- or under-cooked, imagined junk thinking that is laden with projection preservatives is not good for our energy fields over time. It’s just not.
Just like there are different kinds of body detoxes—involving anything from only eating brown rice, to only drinking juices, to abstaining from sugars and starches, or abstaining from eating animals or their products—there are many kinds of mental detoxes, it occurred to me.
In this case, I am being realistic yet am also asking for a challenge. The reality is, I can’t detox from many different types of thinking at the same time. It’s just a recipe for failure. Instead, I’ll focus on one thing. But that one thing, I’m going to really cut out as much as possible without disabling my social life by acting “weird.” I'm going to clean the slate and face the challenges and rewards of doing so head-on.
How this Plays Out
For example, if someone asks: “Have you seen John today?” I’m not going to say: “Sorry, I’m on a mental detox and can’t talk about people.”
That’s absurd. It’s also not the point. The point is actually to do this without it being apparent. The point is that I know I am doing it and thus I can track the changes to my energy field when I do. I can mark my own progress. I can raise my own sense of confidence as I process my own thinking about people.
That said, the other example is this. Let’s say I have a dissonant experience in a yoga class with a teacher.
Someone asks me: “Have you been to xyz’s yoga class? Did you like it?” My response can be honest yet still allow the person to be open to trying for themselves: “Yes, I have. It wasn’t an experience I found worked with me. But I don’t want to influence how you feel so please if you sense you want to try, do so.”
One caveat here is danger. If I felt I was being abused or in danger around someone, I would tell people.
My point is this. This is a detox. This is not fasting from all words about other people. This is a very selective exercise that I will engage in for two weeks. I anticipate that it will allow my thinking to transmute over time instead of staying in stagnant “status quo” loops as I chit chat with others about my thoughts.
Over time, as I’ve slipped and slid into conversations about others, I find I’ve become lazy. For some reason I've let this habit create a circumstance whereby I’m not sure I trust my own perceptions and need to ask others OR I need some low-level ego validation about the way I feel! It’s not something I feel good about. It’s making me sluggish and heavy. It's also energetically leaky and expensive as I spend a lot of time after the stories I spin justifying them or feeling bad or feeling trapped by them and ... again, icky.
I need this detox. And just like a body detox, I anticipate it will be laden with challenges. I will feel serious temptations to share some information about my projections and perceptions about others—to celebrate them with people who think the same way and to feed my hungry ego.
Detoxing is Not Supposed to be Easy
Yes, I’ve reached an energetic/evolutionary block/plateau. And today during meditation, I received light from my north star about a solution. What I never receive is the work.
I have to do that myself.
So this is the first such mental detox I am doing. It will last for two weeks starting from today. I already feel, after making this commitment within my mind, my energy has shifted. A softness has surrounded me. People are smiling at me.
And yet, I know that I haven’t reached a point where it is tested.
What I will do is write a Part 2 post in two weeks and let you know how it went. I have a feeling I will start doing such detoxes on different subtle energy topics like anger, self-negation, self-criticism, expectations and other habits that can really weigh the human soul down as it tries to develop in this amazing time.
And as I do, I’d like to invite people to join me. You can even join me on this one and send comments about your contact information so maybe we can do an uber conference call or I can ask for your feedback to add to the Part 2 blog.
What do you think?