On this Scorpio moon day, as I work on a painting, I meditate on an idea that graces my open mind.
It flew in like a bird and sat on the sill long enough for me to get a good look at it. I thanked it before it flew away. Here’s what it looked like:
Is it possible that you can be so in control that you spin yourself out of it? Throw yourself into a direction that is the opposite to where you would love to go? grip so tightly that you feel the very edge of your life as it is naturally, slip away?
Yes. It is possible. Because while we are co-creators of our realities, we need to cooperate with what the moments are trying to give us. And if we think we can manage this and control this, we will miss out on everything life wants show us—the destiny of our souls will be sorely limited and marked by constant friction.
Things that want to happen through us may happen, but far fewer, and with so much unnecessary tension. The universe will face palm itself and say “gosh this poor, fearful person who is actually capable, great and well endowed with so many resources doesn’t get it, AT ALL!”
But it will still love you, the universe. As if you were its only child. Don’t worry. And it will also spank you with more ideas to try to wake you up.
Maybe what you are reading is a little spanking from the universe? A friendly tap on the bum is what I believe was in the contract …
You are not alone, in anything you do. You did not conceive yourself or weave your DNA together or anything like that. You know this, darling. You didn’t.
Even if you lock yourself in isolation. Your thoughts will come and play in your mind. Just wait. It’s up to you, to do something. But then, after a while you really begin to see that you can’t even do anything to control THAT. If you are not able to distract yourself or talk to someone, you will see you have nothing left with which to control. The only option is to let go and detach. Because if you don’t figure out how to do this, you could get locked in a maze of thinking and “go nuts.”
You have to find the midpoint. Alone or in a chaotic situation. You have to find the midpoint. Where you let the universe in between you and what is happening. Where you CO-create. Where you admit that since you were a zygote, life has the lead on you and still does.
The meantimes are the most of times …
What could be so worth controlling that you focus on it this much?
Actually, there's just one thing:
The level of openness you maintain to what is actually happening. The level of presence you are able to cultivate in that moment to see the opportunities to CO-create with materials, with people, with nature.
I repeat what is worth repeating: OPENNESS is within your control.
To be a part of it all, you must choose, in any moment, against habit, against fear, against imagination, against what society tells you is cool to be a melancholy average person who writes sad songs—against it ALL: To Open up.
Let go of any exaggerated sense of control—which in the end puts you on the sidelines of your life, locked out of it!
Life avails challenge, joy, pain, humiliation, recovery, peace, balance, insecurity, security, so many experiences that add up to satisfaction, experience, memories made, growth, maturity, deep, authentic connections.
Life avails so much more satisfaction when we control within the reasons of our evolving soul, and let go of the rest—when we allow our co-creator, the universe, with all of its knowledge about us, to join us, side-by-side.
It’s a spectrum. It’s a process—the refinement of control. But it’s worth looking at.